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For me, everything I know about love can be found in the relationship between Joseph and Zacharias.
Because, yes, I talk about them constantly, and they're characters and not real, but they just...wow. I mean, there's so much love there. And it isn't like they want to fall into bed and shag at every opportunity, because they don't. Half the time they don't even realize that they're in love. But it's there, I know it's there, and I want to make the readers realize it too.
It's like...without the one, there isn't the other. Neither of them were heroes before the other came along. Zacharias was willing to betray the only real friends he'd ever had. Joseph was quiet and most people, including me, probably never realized that there was anything wrong, but it was there - the ever-growing rage against the machine.
They found each other, and made each other better. They were broken, but they fixed each other. They were comfortable with each other. They were in love.
I've never been in love as it relates to marriage/sex/kids/etc. I do know that I'm absolutely and totally in love with you, Pyrae, but not in that way. You are my best friend and I love you. You already knew that, but I shall say it again, just so you know I haven't forgotten.
Quite frankly, I do not care about romance anymore. There's something dirty and screwed up about it these days. I don't know why.
Friendship is my love.
That still doesn't mean I know anything about it, though. I wander through every day wide-eyed and bemused without any idea what's going on, and the only constant is that I love my friends, I love them with all my soul and I would die for them.
I find myself more affected by friendship than by romance in books. It's always the friendship, or at least the non-romantic love, that makes me do things like cry or scream or throw books halfway across the room because of how stunning and perfect and beautiful it is.
Joseph and Zacharias are the culmination of everything I know about love. They are soulmates. They cannot live without each other. They don't have to have any kind of physical relationship at all. That's why Lasa and Zac cannot be together - because she would mess up what Joseph and Zacharias have, and that would be horrifying and unfair. And I'm sorry that I cannot do their relationship justice, however hard I try. I'm sorry. I know what it's like in my head and I'm sorry I can't make other people feel it. I shall try harder.
The world is green and fresh and beautiful and I am glad to be a part of it.
Because, yes, I talk about them constantly, and they're characters and not real, but they just...wow. I mean, there's so much love there. And it isn't like they want to fall into bed and shag at every opportunity, because they don't. Half the time they don't even realize that they're in love. But it's there, I know it's there, and I want to make the readers realize it too.
It's like...without the one, there isn't the other. Neither of them were heroes before the other came along. Zacharias was willing to betray the only real friends he'd ever had. Joseph was quiet and most people, including me, probably never realized that there was anything wrong, but it was there - the ever-growing rage against the machine.
They found each other, and made each other better. They were broken, but they fixed each other. They were comfortable with each other. They were in love.
I've never been in love as it relates to marriage/sex/kids/etc. I do know that I'm absolutely and totally in love with you, Pyrae, but not in that way. You are my best friend and I love you. You already knew that, but I shall say it again, just so you know I haven't forgotten.
Quite frankly, I do not care about romance anymore. There's something dirty and screwed up about it these days. I don't know why.
Friendship is my love.
That still doesn't mean I know anything about it, though. I wander through every day wide-eyed and bemused without any idea what's going on, and the only constant is that I love my friends, I love them with all my soul and I would die for them.
I find myself more affected by friendship than by romance in books. It's always the friendship, or at least the non-romantic love, that makes me do things like cry or scream or throw books halfway across the room because of how stunning and perfect and beautiful it is.
Joseph and Zacharias are the culmination of everything I know about love. They are soulmates. They cannot live without each other. They don't have to have any kind of physical relationship at all. That's why Lasa and Zac cannot be together - because she would mess up what Joseph and Zacharias have, and that would be horrifying and unfair. And I'm sorry that I cannot do their relationship justice, however hard I try. I'm sorry. I know what it's like in my head and I'm sorry I can't make other people feel it. I shall try harder.
The world is green and fresh and beautiful and I am glad to be a part of it.