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While we were on vacation, I happened to mention that I wanted to join the swim team. Well, fine, momentary lapse. Now I don't want to do it.
But then my mother went and listened to me and took an interest in my life and talked to the captain, and now I am on the swim team.
It's not that hard to quit, really, and there are so many reasons to do it. I can't have a sport in my schedule for autumn because I need to do the play; I need the time for schoolwork; I need the time for my RPG; I need the time for my writing. And, you know, housework and socialising and stuff.
I just don't have the time or the inclination for this right now.
But, at the same time, I want to do it. Because I need more extracurriculars for my college applications. Because by all accounts third-year P.E. is brutal and I'll never survive without some motivation to exercise. Because it's really horrible that the one time Mom listened to me, she shouldn't have done.
Regardless, though, I have to go to practice today and see what's up.
It's stupid to even think of sticking with it. The schedule will drive me insane. I'm being stupid for hedging, because I have to quit. I know I do.
But I'm still not sure if I should.
But then my mother went and listened to me and took an interest in my life and talked to the captain, and now I am on the swim team.
It's not that hard to quit, really, and there are so many reasons to do it. I can't have a sport in my schedule for autumn because I need to do the play; I need the time for schoolwork; I need the time for my RPG; I need the time for my writing. And, you know, housework and socialising and stuff.
I just don't have the time or the inclination for this right now.
But, at the same time, I want to do it. Because I need more extracurriculars for my college applications. Because by all accounts third-year P.E. is brutal and I'll never survive without some motivation to exercise. Because it's really horrible that the one time Mom listened to me, she shouldn't have done.
Regardless, though, I have to go to practice today and see what's up.
It's stupid to even think of sticking with it. The schedule will drive me insane. I'm being stupid for hedging, because I have to quit. I know I do.
But I'm still not sure if I should.